If all of this bullshit with financing and loans doesn’t work out and I’m unable to attend SCAD in the fall, I am going to off myself. I feel sick. This is the only thing I really want in my life and I can feel it not working out and I just want to die. I can’t handle staying here next year and living with my parents and I can’t afford to do anything else. I’m feeling more and more at peace with the idea of just being dead.
"Ancient moon priestesses were called virgins. ‘Virgin’ meant not married, not belonging to a man - a woman who was ‘one-in-herself’. The very word derives from a Latin root meaning strength, force, skill; and was later applied to men: virle. Ishtar, Diana, Astarte, Isis were all all called virgin, which did not refer to sexual chastity, but sexual independence. And all great culture heroes of the past, mythic or historic, were said to be born of virgin mothers: Marduk, Gilgamesh, Buddha, Osiris, Dionysus, Genghis Khan, Jesus - they were all affirmed as sons of the Great Mother, of the Original One, their worldly power deriving from her. When the Hebrews used the word, and in the original Aramaic, it meant ‘maiden’ or ‘young woman’, with no connotations to sexual chastity. But later Christian translators could not conceive of the ‘Virgin Mary’ as a woman of independent sexuality, needless to say; they distorted the meaning into sexually pure, chaste, never touched."
Monica Sjoo, The Great Cosmic Mother: Rediscovering the Religion of the Earth (via stolenwine)
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"But who prays for Satan? Who, in eighteen centuries, has had the common humanity to pray for the one sinner that needed it most?"
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shooting myself in the head is a hell of a lot cheaper than college
"It is illegal for women to go topless in most cities, yet you can buy a magazine of a woman without her top on at any 7-11 store. So, you can sell breasts, but you cannot wear breasts, in America."
Violet Rose (via c-icatrix)
This is one of my favorite quotes about sexualization/objectification vs autonomy of female bodies bc it’s so succinct
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"At the end of the day, we can endure much more than we think we can."
Frida Kahlo (via pleasejustkeepmovingforward)
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sleeping in Alex’s shirt which smells so much like him I’m almost sad